Last Wednesday evening at church during Discipleship Counseling class, I sat in the back because I got there a couple minutes late and all the table seats (where I would normally be sitting) were filled up. Sovereignly, I ended up sitting two seats to the left of someone whom I had recognized to be the husband of an old acquaintance.
Being the friendly-and-not-shy girl that I am (most of the time), I turned to him during our 5 minute break and initiated conversation.
"Are you Taeree's husband?"
To my relief (because there was still a slight chance that I could have been wrong), he replied, "Yeah. And you're Tae's girlfriend...?"
Though he asked with some hesitancy in his voice, it was interesting to me that that was what he associated me with. Goes to show that he and his wife must have really been out of the loop over the past couple of years, but I don't blame them since they were never close friends of mine or super involved in my life or anything.
"We're not together anymore, it's been over 2 years," I replied with calmness and a smile - both of which were genuine. He then apologized but I told him that it was okay and meant it.
At that moment, I found my heart crack into a wide grin while rejoicing and praising the Lord. Wow, had this same interaction happened a year ago (and it did during summer GOC at UCLA in 2014. Was catching up with one of the undershepherds and then he asks me: "How's Tae doing?.... Gasp, oh... I'm sorry, I didn't know you guys weren't together anymore..." *awkwardness ensues*), it would have still been so hard and sensitive for my heart and I probably would have gotten emotional and wanted to cry. But this time around, it didn't sting. Not one bit. It didn't hurt me anymore or make me feel sad, grieved, awkward, or even miss what I once had. And I believe all this is a result from a heart that has finally fully accepted what the Lord has chosen to give me (or in this case, take away) - all in His love, grace, wisdom, and sovereign care over my soul. This little incident and how I responded to it, by the grace of God, was evidence of healing from perhaps the most painful, traumatic, stressful, difficult yet good, blessed, fruitful, sanctifying trial I've experienced in my life thusfar.
God is sooooo good indeed! To Him be all glory, praise, and honor forever!
Good morning how are you?
ReplyDeleteMy name is Emilio, I am a Spanish boy and I live in a town near to Madrid. I am a very interested person in knowing things so different as the culture, the way of life of the inhabitants of our planet, the fauna, the flora, and the landscapes of all the countries of the world etc. in summary, I am a person that enjoys traveling, learning and respecting people's diversity from all over the world.
I would love to travel and meet in person all the aspects above mentioned, but unfortunately as this is very expensive and my purchasing power is quite small, so I devised a way to travel with the imagination in every corner of our planet. A few years ago I started a collection of used stamps because trough them, you can see pictures about fauna, flora, monuments, landscapes etc. from all the countries. As every day is more and more difficult to get stamps, some years ago I started a new collection in order to get traditional letters addressed to me in which my goal was to get at least 1 letter from each country in the world. This modest goal is feasible to reach in the most part of countries, but unfortunately it’s impossible to achieve in other various territories for several reasons, either because they are countries at war, either because they are countries with extreme poverty or because for whatever reason the postal system is not functioning properly.
For all this I would ask you one small favor:
Would you be so kind as to send me a letter by traditional mail from Myanmar? I understand perfectly that you think that your blog is not the appropriate place to ask this, and even, is very probably that you ignore my letter, but I would call your attention to the difficulty involved in getting a letter from that country, and also I don’t know anyone neither where to write in Myanmar in order to increase my collection. a letter for me is like a little souvenir, like if I have had visited that territory with my imagination and at same time, the arrival of the letters from a country is a sign of peace and normality and an original way to promote a country in the world. My postal address is the following one:
Emilio Fernandez Esteban
Calle Valencia, 39
28903 Getafe (Madrid)
Spain
If you wish, you can visit my blog www.cartasenmibuzon.blogspot.com where you can see the pictures of all the letters that I have received from whole World.
Finally I would like to thank the attention given to this letter, and whether you can help me or not, I send my best wishes for peace, health and happiness for you, your family and all your dear beings.
Yours Sincerely
Emilio Fernandez