One year ago today, I said "yes" to dating you while we were sitting on Janns Steps @ UCLA that fateful Friday night right before combined UCLA/USC GOC. Little did we know that just about 3 months later, our relationship would end. These days, and tonight especially, the pain of breakup is especially heavy. My heart is filled with grief and pain, my tears have been my food, I am very sad and feeling so fragile.
I wish I could "wake up" from this bad dream and all the pain and inward hurt would disappear. If only it were that easy. It's times like these that I don't mind dying so that I could be in Heaven free from this suffering and pain.
Through it all, I know the Lord is with me, even if I don't feel it. I need to keep turning to God and lean hard on Jesus because I have no strength left inside of me, no more "fight" in me. But I won't give up. When I am very weak, and my own heart fails me, I turn to the One who is strong in my weakness, the One who is greater than my heart.
This too will pass, someday.
