Dear Friend,
I am thinking of you heavily tonight. I am sad that you are purposefully ignoring me and shocked and sorrowful to find out that you have blocked me... I may or may not understand the reasons why. I cried tonight when I found out. I haven't shed tears like this in a while. I would like an explanation, at least some form of communication, or even just closure, though I know I am neither entitled to nor am demanding it. I was worried about you because I hadn't heard from you in so long. We haven't talked one-on-one in a long time, and that's okay. About a year now. I know it's intentional on both parts and I was fine with that, I wanted to respect the current state you were in... but you never even responded to the group emails or group texts. It's not like you to be that way, not the good friend I know (or once knew well). To not respond or reply. Not a single word. I began to worry if something might have happened to you, wondering if you're doing well, maybe you are hurting or going through some deep dark trial? I didn't even know you had moved to Norcal, you didn't even tell me nor say goodbye. Walked out of my life just like that, no warning. Again, not like you. I'm not sure what happened, we were once good friends and siblings in Christ,,, But your decision has ultimately brought my heart grief and hurt, especially with how things are now. So much of it I don't know. But I want to believe the best about you and trust that you made this decision prayerfully and based on what you thought was best. I will continue to pray for you and entrust you to God, the only One whom I know and can trust, the One who shelters and protects us from evil and gives His children all that is best. May we continue to earnestly seek Him in His Word and walk in His righteous ways, not compromising nor giving into our own hearts or flesh, or even the pressures of others.
I miss you. I love you in Christ and wish all the best for you always, even if I'm hurting. I am praying for you.
Your forever friend and sister in Christ,
Frances
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"I do know that waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered questions, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts. It's easy to talk oneself into a decision that has no permanence -- easier sometimes than to wait patiently." -- Elisabeth Elliot
