Dear Almighty God, my Heavenly Father,
You are good, faithful, in control always. I will trust You no matter what. You will surely continue to guide me and provide for me, as You have been the past 33 years of my life.
Over the last few weeks, I have lost my health, someone I love, and am about to lose my job.
Health - I caught covid-19 and had the whole gamut of symptoms: sore throat, cough, fever, chills, body aches, headache, nasal congestion, diarrhea, loss of appetite, fatigue. The virus hit me pretty hard and I've been sick for the past 2 weeks, unable to work, and with some lingering symptoms.
Special someone - There is mutual interest between a dear brother and me but due to present circumstances and issues concerning maturity and finance, we cannot be in a relationship at the moment. We are letting each other go, stopping communication, and forgoing any hope of being together (though admittedly, the last part has been very difficult for me to do).
Job - In less than a week on Feb 1, 2022, I will be officially terminated from my job as a registered nurse in oncology at The Angeles Clinic and Research Institute, which is an affiliate of Cedars-Sinai, because I refuse to take the covid-19 booster because it violates my conscience as a faithful follower of Jesus Christ. My convictions and personal research lead me to believe that there is currently insufficient data proving the long-term efficacy nor safety of these vaccinations. I want to be a good steward of my God-given body and prohibit the injection of an experimental drug that may potentially cause my body harm.
It's been a pretty emotional and overwhelming past several weeks, yet I have also experienced much comfort and peace from Above. God has remained exceedingly kind, faithful, loving, and good in meeting all my needs and providing at every turn of the way. Sisters have been dropping of meals and groceries since I have been too sick and tired to cook and drive. Saints have been praying for me and checking in. God provided covid meds (ivermectin and hydroxychloroquine) through a few generous saints from church, someone even helped retrieve and deliver them to me.
The line from Great is Thy Faithfulness comes to mind: "All I have needed Thy Hands hath provided, great is Thy faithfulness Lord unto me." Amen! May I keep on believing this truth! Lord, please increase my faith!
The incessant love, support, prayers, and encouragement I have received from the saints from the faithful body of Christ around me, including that of my friends, mother, discipler, loving sisters and brothers, flood my heart with joy and gratitude. They mean more than the world to me and ministers to my tearful, heavy, sorrowful yet still rejoicing heart tremendously. My hope and trust lie completely in Jesus Christ alone. No matter what happens, I know He is faithful to keep me till the end. I will continue to wait on Him in quiet trust and fervent prayer. Watching and praying to see what He will do next. May I too be found faithful till the end, continually worshiping and joyfully obeying in every moment. May God's glory and honor be my continual pursuit. May I continue to love my Jesus Christ!
