Two Years

Today marks 2 whole years since the break-up.  I'm still alive and even doing well - PRAISE THE LORD!  That event and everything that followed over the span of the past 2 years was probably the most painful, heartbreaking thing I've ever experienced, but looking back, I'm super grateful for all that the Lord brought me through in His sovereignty, perfect wisdom, and loving care.  All that happened in the past two years was what my Father thought was best for me.  What a special time of precious sanctification - coming face to face with my deeply gross and disgusting sins and ugly pride, learning true repentance, experiencing and receiving God's abundant grace that pardons and cleanses within, growing in Christ likeness...

I have grown SOOOO MUCH (I can feel it!) - and it's all by God's grace.  He has grown me in areas of acceptance, contentment, forgiveness, thankfulness, joy, trust in God; putting to death self, idols, pride, anger, bitterness, unforgiveness... I am beyond grateful.  I know my Lord Jesus more intimately and deeply than I did two years ago.  I know the power of His resurrection more than I did two years ago.  I can say that I had the privilege and joy to share in His sufferings a little more than I did two years ago.

Even though T's not in my life anymore (at least not in the same way), I have Christ and that is enough!  Christ is sufficient for me!  He is everything to me; all I have is Christ.  And He is the reason why I am able to move forward - with my eyes fixed on my True and Eternal Love: Jesus.

:)