Wouldn't you agree that it's always nice to know that you're making progress and growing. Moving forward.
Praise God!
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
"My Baby's Heart Stopped Beating"
I don't know if I'll ever get to have my own baby, or if I have a baby whose heart stopped beating. But if the latter ever happens to me, I hope that I could respond in the same way that this godly woman did to the God whom she loves and worships and trusts.
http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/my-baby-s-heart-stopped-beating
http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/my-baby-s-heart-stopped-beating
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Joy
So I've been struggling to have joy. I've been feeling down and depressed for quite a while now. I don't know how to explain it - not depressed to the point where I want to kill myself or am unable to function (and I know that is the grace of God) but I guess you can call it depression in that it's like a gloomy cloud that hangs over me (or follows me) and it's never really gone away completely, and it's been like this for a while now. I don't quite remember when it started, but probably around the fall of 2013. Or maybe even before. 2013/2014 was a rough year.
Yesterday night at GOC Steve Lawson said, "The greatest joy in life is to know Jesus personally. The second greatest joy is to be used by God to help others do the same." I sat there listening intently with tears streaming down my face because deep down inside my heart, I couldn't agree more. And this heart of mine is desperate to possess that kind of joy - both the greatest and second greatest. And I know that that kind of joy comes only from God. I cannot derive it from within myself or from someone or something or somewhere else.
Oh Jesus, I desperately want to know you more, and I want to know you personally, and I want to help others know you. I want to learn to know you.
Jeremiah 9:23-24
Yesterday night at GOC Steve Lawson said, "The greatest joy in life is to know Jesus personally. The second greatest joy is to be used by God to help others do the same." I sat there listening intently with tears streaming down my face because deep down inside my heart, I couldn't agree more. And this heart of mine is desperate to possess that kind of joy - both the greatest and second greatest. And I know that that kind of joy comes only from God. I cannot derive it from within myself or from someone or something or somewhere else.
Oh Jesus, I desperately want to know you more, and I want to know you personally, and I want to help others know you. I want to learn to know you.
Jeremiah 9:23-24
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Corrie ten Boom: A Faith Undefeated
Look around and be distressed.
Look within and be depressed.
Look at Jesus and be at rest.
-Corrie ten Boom
Look within and be depressed.
Look at Jesus and be at rest.
-Corrie ten Boom
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Sometimes the most loving thing God can do for us is to make us WAIT
http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/do-you-hate-to-wait
“When God says, ‘Later,’ he turns up the emotional volume knob to reveal what’s in our heart.”
"There is no answer for these sufferings, except that God is God. But that answer leaves us with a tension that is, at least emotionally, irresolvable. We ask why God would put us through a difficult season of waiting only to pull the rug out from under us, and we question his trustworthiness, his character, and even his love... God never promises a reason. He rarely offers an answer. He will always offer himself. And I (reluctantly) cannot think of a more persuasive way for God to present himself to a sinful heart than through rising anticipation, and the free fall of disappointment."
“Praise Jesus that I don’t get what I want when I want it.”
“When God says, ‘Later,’ he turns up the emotional volume knob to reveal what’s in our heart.”
"There is no answer for these sufferings, except that God is God. But that answer leaves us with a tension that is, at least emotionally, irresolvable. We ask why God would put us through a difficult season of waiting only to pull the rug out from under us, and we question his trustworthiness, his character, and even his love... God never promises a reason. He rarely offers an answer. He will always offer himself. And I (reluctantly) cannot think of a more persuasive way for God to present himself to a sinful heart than through rising anticipation, and the free fall of disappointment."
“Praise Jesus that I don’t get what I want when I want it.”
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
email to my pastor
Do you remember the first sermon you preached for summer GOC two Thursdays ago? It was on God's attribute of holiness. It was really powerful -- each word hit me right here *pounds chest*. I believe it ultimately wasn't you but the Holy Spirit through you speaking to me and others in the room. These days the Lord has been deeply convicting me of how terrible a sinner I really am - truly no better than a criminal or prostitute or Pharisee - deserving of death, yet what I received was grace and forgiveness of sins.
God's doing a deep work in me. Sometimes it feels like it's going so slowly, but I realize that a lot of times it's my own sin and rebelliousness that's "impeding" God's work. Sometimes I also feel that my sins are "beyond cure" because they're so bad, but even in thinking that way I find myself detracting from the Gospel and Christ's death on the cross. In the end, I'm thankful that God is powerful and sovereign even over my sin and that His plans for me cannot be thwarted. What a relief!
Jeremiah 9:23-24 has been my daily prayer ever since you read it during call to worship two Thursdays ago. I've been meditating on and praying over those verses.
I just want to say thank you for preaching the Word of God so faithfully.
Your Sister in the Faith,
Frances
P.S. And your advice on finding out my weak areas and improving on those -- God has been faithful in revealing my weaknesses. Soooo messy and painful, but so worth it in the end.
God's doing a deep work in me. Sometimes it feels like it's going so slowly, but I realize that a lot of times it's my own sin and rebelliousness that's "impeding" God's work. Sometimes I also feel that my sins are "beyond cure" because they're so bad, but even in thinking that way I find myself detracting from the Gospel and Christ's death on the cross. In the end, I'm thankful that God is powerful and sovereign even over my sin and that His plans for me cannot be thwarted. What a relief!
Jeremiah 9:23-24 has been my daily prayer ever since you read it during call to worship two Thursdays ago. I've been meditating on and praying over those verses.
I just want to say thank you for preaching the Word of God so faithfully.
Your Sister in the Faith,
Frances
P.S. And your advice on finding out my weak areas and improving on those -- God has been faithful in revealing my weaknesses. Soooo messy and painful, but so worth it in the end.
Thursday, August 14, 2014
thanks God for messing up my life plan
http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/when-god-messes-with-your-life-plan
God seriously messed up Joseph's and Abraham’s life plans, and it turned out to be a really good thing. God accomplished for each of them what they could never have accomplished on their own.
I, too, have no personal life plan now. And I'm content leaving it that way. Because my God will make known to me in due time what He wants me to do.
God seriously messed up Joseph's and Abraham’s life plans, and it turned out to be a really good thing. God accomplished for each of them what they could never have accomplished on their own.
I, too, have no personal life plan now. And I'm content leaving it that way. Because my God will make known to me in due time what He wants me to do.
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