Captivate Us, Lord Jesus, With You

I'm already in the most important relationship of my life. Jesus is my valentime :)

Love

I already have the greatest Love of all inside of me.

Christ in me = life. Because Jesus is in me, I can live. I will live, even though it's hard sometimes. Because I have Love.

How I Want to Die

“I love to hear the Word of God read aloud. One of the most difficult pastoral tasks I’ve ever had came very early in my ministry. I was teaching at a college in Massachusetts, and a man closely connected to the school became sick unto death. I used to go to Massachusetts General Hospital every day and sit by his bed and watch him die a day at a time. Finally we came down to the last few hours of his life, and there was very little I could do to comfort him other than put some ice on his parched lips, wipe the sweat from his forehead, and read to him from the Word of God. But that is what he most wanted because of the comfort the Scriptures provided. That’s how I want to die — listening to the Word of God, because that Word is life.” – RC Sproul

Perimeter

Came back from running the perimeter around UCLA with John, Peter, Mark, and Caleb a few hours ago. What a good run! I felt pretty good after running it. Hope we do it more often.

And praise the Lord for giving me energy and strength to keep up with the brothers! =P

a Word from Him

This morning I was thinking of Philippians 1:6. This quarter's been challenging and rough for me in terms of balancing life with Nursing school, ministry, and relationships while first being devoted to God above all else... even up a notch in intensity from last quarter.

Then halfway through my Secondary Prevention lecture, I got an email from a friend:

word for you:

"and i am sure of this that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ"- Phil 1:6

jia you! since God brought you here, He will bring it to completion.

I love it when God speaks and confirms :) I'm thankful and joyful.

The Heart

An excerpt from my sister Vicky's blog:

Isn’t it interesting how God shows Himself faithful and faithful again, yet I’m still anxious? And then out of my anxiety, I somehow choose to trust my own ways over His? LOL. My own ways...

I wonder what would happen if I really just went God's way. More people would be blessed. His eternal Kingdom would reign rather than my temporary selfish desires. My worries would be replaced with peace that surpasses all understanding. Wouldn't it be neat if answered prayers really drove my life rather than a constant need to control it?

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it.

Oh for grace to trust Him more.

so true, sister. so true. yes i am prone to wander too... may we continue to repent daily -- deep, thorough repentance -- and turn our fickle hearts back to our True Love!

tonight i so happen to be meditating on Jeremiah 17:9-10. let us continue to ask the Lord to guard our hearts -- our hearts that are deceitful yet so precious to Him! and He wants it ALL FOR HIMSELF. may He purify our hearts and make it strong, make it beat for Him. may God be the strength or our hearts and our portion forever (Psalm 73:25-26).

please pray for continual deep healing, freedom, restoration, and peace for me. my body and soul are tempted to grow weary (this quarter is the toughest quarter of Nursing school! and ministry on top of that just makes everything busier) but God is telling me time and time again to cast all my anxieties on Him because He cares and He is good and faithful and full of grace. and because He loves me. He calls me to remember His character.

O Lord GOD, my heart and flesh may fail, but You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Help me to cling onto this promise during this time.

Hungry

Hungry I come to You for I know You satisfy...

Today is the 5th day of my Daniel Fast. It's been pretty good so far. I got pretty sick starting Monday after Winter Conference, so I guess being weak and sick with a limited diet has been a little challenging at times, but it's been okay. God is good and loving. I'm kind of always a little bit hungry now but not starving or anything. Mostly been eating vegetables (carrots, celery, cauliflower, tomatoes) and fruits (apples, oranges, bananas, pears) and grains (wheat bread, rice porridge, granola).

Some things I'm praying over as I fast:
-deep inner HEALING
-FREEDOM. I want to be free
-greater personal FAITH to believe GOD
-be surrendered about all tings
-be filled with the Spirit
-NO MORE FEAR of man or anything of this world
-discipleship (I will be discipling someone this quarter, first in America PTL!)
-Mei and Esther (my friends who will be serving as missionaries in Mongolia and Kyrgyzstan for 2+ years)

May God continue to be the strength of my heart and portion forever (Psalm 73:26) throughout this entire span of 21 days of Daniel Fasting and beyond, as well as anyone else out there who is also doing the Daniel Fast at this time, and may His Word continue to be my food, for man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord (Deuteronomy 8:3).