Dilemma: need to decide whether to go to this place or that place tomorrow evening. whatever i choose, i want to do it for all the right reasons that are pleasing and glorifying to God, not for my own selfish or even prideful reasons or motives. for Your sake Lord, and for the sake of Your people. need to pray and ask God to search my heart. need to hear from Him.

Prince William is getting married tomorrow to Kate Middleton at Westminster Abbey. Aww I really like weddings. Hmmm I wonder when it will be my turn...

Okay... back to eyes on Jesus alone!!!

A Special Good Friday to Remember

Good Friday: the day that my Savior was tortured and suffered big time and died on the cross for my sins, my guilt, my shame -- for ME. Let us remember Jesus and His great sacrifice ♥

Today is also definitely a Good Friday to remember because of what happened tonight in Tad's Steakhouse in downtown, SF. I cried tears of joy (and it's been weeks since I've cried actually!) just listening to my sisters Michelle, Vicky, and Moon share about what's been happening in their lives. Even though on the surface it may seem like sucky things or how things don't turn out the way they desperately want, I definitely see God being powerfully at work in their lives and I feel and see His amazzzzzing love so evident in the lives of my beloved sisters. I was just so overwhelmed by His love that it moved me to tears. Hah, me crying inadvertently started a cascade because Moon started to cry as she was trying to comfort me and then Vicky got teary-eyed. Michelle didn't cry (yet). But later on even Michelle had tears welled up in her eyes.

God, you are just beyond words. You are so powerful and mighty! And You are absolutely sovereign! Thanks so much for loving us in the ways you do and loving us so perfectly. You are PERFECT for each of us. Your Love is enough. You Alone are enough. Thank you X infinity for sending us Jesus Christ who took our place on the cross so that we could be beautiful, free of shame, no longer prisoners to sin or the law, so that we could have this eternally glorious love relationship with You forever and ever! Thank You for the cross, Lord.

“God is teaching me that it's not about me. I need to be faithful, and He will speak through me. I'm not going to worry so much about being successful or relevant. I want to awaken in my generation something that's been dead. I want to make the Word flesh and blood for my generation, to show them that living out the Gospel is something greater and more mysterious, with more adventures than we've learned." - Bethany Dillon

Amen sister!

P.S. Please let me know if you would like a copy of my V-SET (Volunteer Summer English Teachers) 2011 summer mission support letter! Thanks :)

"Make Holy Week Holy to the Lord"

Make Holy Week Holy to the Lord

April 17, 2011 | by: John Piper | Category: Commentary
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The week between Palm Sunday and Easter is not intrinsically holy, except that all time is holy, since it belongs to God. But we can make it holy by setting it apart for sacred focus.

May I encourage you to do that, for the sake of seeing more of the greatness of Christ. He reveals himself through his word. Take up his word and focus your attention on him in his last hours. Set aside some time this week to fix your gaze steadily on him as he loves you to the uttermost (John 13:1).

The passages in the Gospels that record his final hours are:

* Matthew 26:17-28:20
* Mark 14:21-16:8
* Luke 22:1-24:53
* John 13:1-21:25

You may find that a volcano erupts in your soul. Like it did for me 28 years ago.

Could I talk to you sometime this afternoon?
About some things I know I'm reading into
Because you and me come at this differently
And I'm just trying to be honest with you
Now that I've found you in the most unexpected places
You were right in front of my face
You could be the one that I could hold on to forever
Hold on to forever
You could be the one
Yeah, I get it
Go change the subject
But I can't forget how much this seems to fit
When you feel this way
Everything sounds so cliche
But I'll try to explain my side of this
Now that I've found you in the most unexpected places
You were right in front of my face
You could be the one that I could hold on to forever
Hold on to forever
You could be the one
Maybe you are the kind that doesn't want to say it
I should just let you be
But maybe if I spoke up that would be enough
To give my mind some peace

You Could Be The One - Bethany Dillon

I had forgotten that I liked this song. Waiting for that day :)

Breaking 6

Congrats to my baby brother Sam who ran under 6 minutes on the mile at today's track meet!!! His time was 5:57. Even I've never broken 6 on the mile before! So proud of that little dude, who's growing up (by God's grace) into quite a fine young man, if I do say so myself >.<

But sitting on the bleachers today at Kezar, watching the little Presidio middle schoolers run and cheering them on... man it brought back sooooo many memories. Memories of my younger years running track in middle school (yeah Presidio Panthers!) and in high school (woot! Lowell Cardinals!). I remember the smell of the grass and the rubbery track and the feeling of a mixture of excitement+dread whenever I'm racing on the field. It's an awesome feeling mixed with some fear, I guess of losing and letting the team/myself down. Haha I remember I got to (by God's grace) compete in All City Finals for every year that I ran track throughout my running career. Key races I remember winning were the All City Girls' 800m dash in 8th grade and 4x100m relay senior year of high school, for which I ran the anchor leg and we made it to State Championships! Of course we only made it for trials =/ bud since we placed like dead last during trials, we didn't get to compete in finals but still, twas a great honor to even get to go to the State meet representing SF! And I still have my State sweatshirt :)

Anyway, it's Sam's last year in middle school (8th grade going on high school! eeck) and both he and I hope that he makes it to All City Finals this year. Stay tuned and lemme know if you wanna come out to one of his meets with me (not very many left) before All City to support and encourage the little man :)

Stuff I Wanna Do

Stuff (some random) that I wanna do. The list is in no particular order.

1) see Chris Tomlin perform live
2) watch Soul Surfer
3) go to a bar, the kind you see in movies
4) white water rafting/kayaking/canoeing/rowboating
5) paintballing
6) real mountain climbing
7) go to Hawaii with my (currently non-existent) boyfriend or future husband
8) win souls for Christ
9) stay up all night or sleep outdoors and watch the stars
10) ride the bus with friends for long period of time and talk or look out the window
11) ride a train and go far far away
12) ride on the back of a motorcyle
13) drive for an extended period of time
14) form a band and do vocals/harmony or play guitar
15) learn bass guitar and percussion
16) race Victor who runs really fast and actually win (or not feel bad when I lose)
17) eat at Red Robin or a buffet one day when I'm feeling really hungry
18) go to a carnival
19) share the Gospel and my faith with people every day
20) play with babies and toddlers and cute kids
21) eat at unlimited sushi buffet place in Davis or Hayward
22) get a tatoo
23) witness a (human) birth
24) live my life every day secure in God's Love
25) think of Jesus in every situation I'm in
26) go on a road trip with my girlfriends (Galatians study sistahs!)
27) download a bunch of songs onto my iPod
28) design a thumb-tact wall with pictures and memories to bring down to UCLA
29) afford to buy something that Sam would like for his 14th birthday
30) finish watching LOTR 2 and 3
31) build a mini toy robot out of wires and metal

There's probably more to this list but this is all I can think of as of now.